Friday, May 29, 2009

An End or a Beginning?

(I wrote this several weeks ago.)

I think back to when it began, it hasn’t been very long, a couple of years at most. I felt guilty at first – It was an unnecessarily pleasure and I knew it. I felt it was a little frivolous but I completely justified it and more or less immersed myself in it. It was the first of a lifetime and I was making up for some lost time. How long can justification out weigh reality? Slowly the newness wore off and I enjoyed it less and less until I would go weeks, eventually months without it. (This description also applies to the treadmill too, but that’s hasn’t gone anywhere.) It was then I realized that it must go. So it has, the direct T.V. Is gone, and although we have a T.V. we have no programming coming into our home. Is this an end or a beginning?
I do miss it a little bit, but I don’t miss it at all either. I never watched it. I would hear others say “did you see so and so” or watch “such and such” and I was always clueless. Mason on the other hand loved having shows like Dora, Diego, Phineas and Ferb, and Curious George always available. He will say “mom, will you put on a show?” But . . . he hasn’t seemed to notice it’s gone either. We do have some DVD’s. I wonder how Alan will feel when the NBA season is underway? Will it matter? Direct T.V. tried really hard to keep us, 9 calls in one day, numerous letters. I give them credit for trying, but we were a lot cause. We never even redeemed the free movie coupon that they sent us. *sigh*


(I wrote this today.)
I never missed it . . . until today, when I heard it was Jay Leno’s last show. I thought “I’d like to see that,” And then I realized I wouldn’t be able to watch it, even if I wanted too.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

A Shooting Star Moment

We had a situation I’ll call a shooting star moment, I came up with that analogy at 3 in the morning so hopefully when I’m coherent I’ll still think it’s witty and applicable. I’ve always loved shooting stars. A shooting star moment is a moments of sheer brilliance, that seem to come out of nowhere, moments that leave us in awe, and then seem to disappear just as quickly as they arrived.

I’m sure this is just a coincidence, but as we were entering the cemetery to place flowers on my sister-in-laws’ grave. Mason said “Look, it says no dogs allowed.” I had been off in my own world. Had Alan told him that? Had I missed something? I responded still trying to grasp the situation “Yes, yes, you’re right it does say not dogs allowed, smarty pants.” He was thrilled and grinned from ear to ear. I kept thinking how does he know that? He has been learning the words to Hey diddle, diddle. Could this be it? Maybe?
This happened on a Friday, and was shortly dismissed. On Saturday we were leaving our neighborhood, a neighbor was having a yard sale and asked if we had seen any of his yard sale signs. We hadn’t been out yet, so as we approached the corner we took an extra couple of moments to comment that you couldn’t miss the yard sale signs. It was then Mason said “Look, it says Trail Avenue.” He knows his address, but he has never been told that small green street sign identified our street name. It was ever so brief I’ve watched for it since, “the shooting star moment” to reappear, it hasn’t, probably merely coincidences, but my “shooting star moment” non the least, he teaches me how to look at the world differently. I’m so thankful for that.

Children are a heritage of the Lord.

SLC Connect Pass

My sister told me about this pass,I think that we will try to take advantage of it. There is a cost, but still may be a good value it you are staying home for vacation and want to do a lot of stuff. I wish we would have know about this pass last Thursday! We would have done more and saved money.

I'm not savey enough to have a link, so here is the site.

http://www.visitsaltlake.com/visit/activities/connect_pass/

Not quite as good as the Community Exploration pass issued through the libary since that pass is free.

Our Whirlwind Weekend

Since I was on vacation, Alan also took a couple of days off over the already long Holiday weekend. He was off Friday through Tuesday. After a short deliberation we decided to stay at home, and take little day excursions. This was our scheduled plan:

Friday – Go to the Cemetery and go to Wheeler Farm
Saturday – Go swimming at the Rec-Center and enjoy the indoor play ground. Plant flowers in the evening.
Sunday – Attend church, and go over reunion plans with the family at family dinner.
Monday – Go to the Aviary and in the evening find a park with an awesome play area.
Tuesday – Go to the zoo and do cub scouts (which we normally do on Tuesday.) It was irnonic I chose this day for the zoo, thinking that it would be a little more calm than any other day. It was field trip day! I've never seem so many children packed in there before. The parking lot looked tranquil with no busses in site. We even parked close to the enterance, the best parking spot I've ever had at the zoo. Mason wanted to be just like the big kids,run free and go where he wanted verses, hold our hand and stay together. It made for a few dramatic moments. Our scouts were even at the zoo too, what a Suprise.

All in all, it was a whirlwind weekend. It was nice just to do things together as a family. Be thankful for our freedoms and not spend very much money. YEA.

Mason would say . . . “What are we going to do next.”He will have a hard time adjusting back to our slower paced life. He likes to be on the go. He would often say “I don’t want to go home.” I think that is because at home there is no one to play with.

Memorial day - Thank You!

Memorial Day is a day to remember, and I found my thoughts lingering on our freedoms, I’m thankful for them, I thankful for the service men and women who sacrifice to ensure them. I’m thankful … very, very thankful.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

"You're Fired"

“You're fired”, is a phrase that my family coined long before Donald Trump made it famous. Once it became popular I did my best to refrain from using it. We had been saying this phrase off and on again for years, but suddenly it felt like we were just using the hottest catchy phrase.

With out thinking, and after a particular long frustrating day I muttered “You're fired” to Mason. He instantly began to cry, big alligator tears. I didn't think the remark was all that bad, I surely didn't think that it warranted the response it received. After several minutes I finally asked him why he was crying. I didn't get any further than tears. I put my arms around him, told him that I loved him and ask : “What do you think “you're fired” means?” His response “I have to find a new family.” It broke my heart. It was clearly not what I had intended.

I've thought a lot about this since it happened. I've thought about areas in my life where I have fallen short and deserved to “Be fired.” I'm so grateful for a loving Heavenly Father who stands by me when I make poor decisions, Who stands by me when I deserve to “Be Fired,” Who beckons : “Come unto me” When I have been somewhat distant.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Hints

I've found that before Christmas, an Anniversary or a Birthday I usually start dropping hints about possible gifts I wouldn't mind receiving, money is always nice. I don't want Alan to give me an exercise ball with out my approval, I can't see that situation being beneficial for either of us. Yes, If I don't drop the rights hints, everything seems to go horribly aray. Even with the right hints you never know what is in store. Last anniversary I was given an i pod touch. I love it. It's introduced me to the world of you tube. I didn't realize then, that the i pod touch was also going to be my birthday present 6 months later. I think somehow I should have been warned. I would of scaled back on the gift I had given him 2 weeks earlier. Just kidding, kinda. In all fairness, I don't think he meant for this to happen, but, it did. After 2 reminders, and 53 days it's time to give up. I chalk my favorite birthday gift up to a water bottle a coworker gave me. I really do love it.
It seems Mason has picked up on this knack of trying to drop hints, Mason loves gardening,flowers and plants. A couple of days ago the boys were out together and he went for the gusto. He ask for a garden wagon. That doesn't sound bad right? The Boys were in the truck and Alan started asking the find out questions. "Tell me about this garden wagon?"
What you and I know as a landscaping truck drove by. This was one with the monster trailers - at least 10 lawnmowers, 5 weed whackers etc. Mason said: "That one, I want one just like that." Later in the evening I asked Mason about this "garden wagon" I ask him who was going to drive the truck? His reply . . . "Mom, we don't need a truck, we will park it (the trailer) out front." The conversation also revealed that the tool compartment is loaded full of seeds. Everyone always tells me how expensive children are.

What is he going to want when he's 5?

Monday, May 11, 2009

Fear

One of my favorite quotes is “Fear makes strangers of people who should be friends.”
I’ve long forgotten who wrote it, but I love it, I know it’s true. I find that even in the world of blogging – I often choose not to post comments, not that I don’t have any thing to share, or words of encouragement to offer, but out of fear. Yes, I know – Fear of What?
While I was in Switzerland I would always smile and say hello to people that I passed. One day, as we were returning from the market, I passed an older woman working in the yard. I smiled said Grutizi, and continued on my way. I had walked the length of her yard (having a yard is very, very uncommon) She called me back, and explained that she had forgotten who I was. I explained that we didn’t know one another, and that I just wanted to wish her well. She seemed quite relieved and I continued on my way. In this small community people normally would only greet one another when they were an acquaintance. It was true in that little town, and It’s true in our everyday lives.
“Fear makes strangers of people who should be friends.”

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Care Free

I’ve thought about posting this for several days now, but in the end decided why not.If we all had a chance to be a little bit happier, a little more go lucky-ish, more care free what kind of world would we have?

Would we enjoy the wind in our hair, and the sun on our back, imitation wool between out toes?

Fortunately for me, I found him out back. What would the neighbors say? Maybe for reasons like these the houses on both sides of us are up for sale. LOL






Thursday, May 7, 2009

This is for you Dylan , thanks for asking.

The progress of our garden via pictures, you can't see the pumpkins, watermelon, onions, herbs, raspberries or sunflowers.














Wednesday, May 6, 2009

What is your Interests?

We all have interests, some people like books, others may enjoy Trains, Models or History. How about blogging? Or Scrap booking, (something I was never very good at.) We all have likes, children do too. Turtles, Geckos, Mushrooms, Dolls. How about Nature, Outer Space or Rocket Engines, I’ll add Chemistry and Physics to the list too. My Son likes Flowers and Plants and Seeds, (His favorite seed being Morning Glory. *SIGH*) the color Yellow and Dora, Whom he loves and insists is a boy. A couple of weeks ago Mason’s preschool class was learning about seeds, and plants. I think, up to this point, it was the highlight of his year. Finally, he was excited; he had so much he wanted to share, which ironically, didn’t fit into the teachers’ agenda. To reinforce the colors they had learned thus far in the year, she would hold up a picture of a plant, tree, or bush and want the children to identify the color. Mason would usually shout the answer out of turn. That’s an orange marigold, a purple lilac, a yellow sunflower Etc. One mother commented “I think he knows more about flowers than I do.” He probably does. An extreme interest comes with its good and it’s bad. It's intense, very intense.

The good, we have discovered the problem our raspberries were having last year. The raspberries’ are planted on the wrong side of the yard. The plants should face east (not west), and have well drained soil. If the soil has a lot of clay in it, the raspberries’ should be placed in a raised garden. Because of the poor soil and the blistering sun, the raspberries’ develop root rot. Yea, we know the problem,the recommended solution is tearing up the yard; hopefully vermiculite will help get us through this year and maybe the next if we are working off of a list.

The bad, I’m constantly tested. Just this morning we were looking at identification cards, The cards, show a picture of an item on the front, and a paper folds out and tells you everything you would ever need to know about what ever the card is on. We came across an Artichoke card. Mason asks, “What is this?” I told him an Artichoke, It was written across the top of the paper. He responds “No, it’s not.” I explain that I had read it, and showed him where on the card it said Artichoke. I Said, “Let’s sound it out.” “NO, it looks like a succulent.” (A soft cactus) I’m right your wrong, end of story. He’s not mean about it, he’s just confidant that he is right, always right. Another example . . . He will show me a picture and ask “What is this?” I’ll respond with the right answer ,“A Shasta Daisy” “Right, Good Job Mom.” It’s amazing that he uses the same positive reinforcements on me that I use on him.
I know more about flowers now, which still is not a lot, than ever before. I need to be thankful he doesn't love rats or snakes. If anyone has any suggestion on how to get him interested in Physics or Chemistry. You know the old saying Love wat you do and you never work a day in you life. If nothing else I can always smile he I ask him: So, you want to be a horticulturist when you grow up . He becomes serious, sometimes starts to cry and says “No, I want to plant seeds when I grow up.”
I’m blessed to have someone remind me to look at the beauty in the world, someone who helps me see things differently. As Mason would say while we are driving, “I wish that car would move so I can see the flowers.” In other words:I know there is beauty, I my not be able to see it, yet, but I know it is there. Isn't that true with life too? Sometimes we can't see past the moment, the trial, the disappointment or the heart ache to actually see how we have grown, developed and maybe even proved ourselves. Flowers, what a beautiful interest.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

"Swim Now for Autism Event"


**check out Christine's awesome post on the Autism Walk at dynomitegirlandfamily.blogspot.com













Today was a GREAT day! The weather was . . . well, grim at best, if you planned on spending hours outdoors . . . which was exactly what was in our forecast. We knew that we were going to be involved in a very special event, Utah's Second Walk Now for Autism. What we didn't know was that it would become a “Swim Now for Autism”. The Children couldn't have been more wet even if they had we jumped into a swimming pool . . . Wait that happened. Mason fell into an actual kiddie pool filled with plastic ducks while trying to win a prize. The large air slides, well, Notice no other children in the picture. Don't children flock to these things? Yes, Just My Son, with a large puddle looming. Mason's second "swimming pool" of the day.

At one point I thought Could it rain any harder? When do you start looking for flotation devices? Or an Ark??? Would I do it again? A resounding Yes! With a larger umbrella! Note to self Buy one or two!
Thank You, Thank You, Thank You – to all of my family and friends who generously donated. I really appreciate it.


As We met up this morning I asked all of my sisters why they planned on walking today. We all have different reasons, although a strong common denominator is love. I wanted to post the video here, but rain, time, rain and cold children eventually changed those plans.

So, Here's a few of my reasons :
I walked today because I care, Autism has forever touched my life. I walked today because the numbers have reached unjustifiable proportions, 1 in 150 children will be diagnosed with Autism, The numbers in Utah are 1 in 133 children, those numbers are staggering! I walked today because I want to be a piece in solving the puzzle of Autism. I walked for the 67 cases that were diagnosed today, for the 67 families that now will face challenges they never expected. I walked today because Autism doesn't receive the funding needed nor the coverage deserved from insurance companies. I walked today in the cold wet rain because this disorder never takes a day off, it never pauses for a more convenient time. I walked today with the heartache of knowing and loving someone with Autism. I know the worry, the concern, the financial liability and the hope associated with this disorder. I walked today because I cannot save the world, but I can make a difference, Even if that difference in some regards is small.
















We missed our family members who couldn't make it.